James, I love you dearly. Don't think the thought hasn't crossed my mind a number of times.

There's more to this story than I penned here. Being 100% honest, marrying someone else while we were dating isn't the 'worst' thing he's done. But I forgave him that as well.

Am I nuts? Who knows. Only time will tell.

We've been together now for going on 6 years and things have been very good for longer than they were, questionable, I guess you'd say.

I think part of the 'issue' was his maturity level (which I mistakenly thought was higher than it truly was), his upbringing, and in all honesty, him not believing he was good enough for me and trying to ensure (oddly) he wouldn't be left alone.

I can psychoanalyze his behavior for the rest of my life and likely never come up with all the answers.

The bottom line is, I chose to stay and do my best to make things work, however that looked. Love isn't always enough, but sometimes, it is a good place to start.

Thank you for always being so supportive <3

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